I am anxious these days. I feel like there are some major changes on the horizon and how I'll end up depends on whether I shape up or slip out (yes, the clichés are glaring). However, slipping out doesn't entail less than mediocrity, a life where I work a 9-to-5 job and live without any foreseeable drama or excitement.
Shaping up (in this case) means taking action, proactively claiming some control over my life. It entails expressing myself more in both text and visual art. I have scenes and stories that I need to put to paper, if only to free them from my highly biodegradable mind. It includes making choices about where I want to live my life, what I am to study, and what job I want to fulfill.
My mind is made for shaping up; my depression and built-in laziness supports slipping out.
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