Arrgh...

The next time I am interviewed on German TV, it will be in English.

I am slightly curious about what kind of voice they dub me with...

Self-determination

I am anxious these days. I feel like there are some major changes on the horizon and how I'll end up depends on whether I shape up or slip out (yes, the clichés are glaring). However, slipping out doesn't entail less than mediocrity, a life where I work a 9-to-5 job and live without any foreseeable drama or excitement.

Shaping up (in this case) means taking action, proactively claiming some control over my life. It entails expressing myself more in both text and visual art. I have scenes and stories that I need to put to paper, if only to free them from my highly biodegradable mind. It includes making choices about where I want to live my life, what I am to study, and what job I want to fulfill.

My mind is made for shaping up; my depression and built-in laziness supports slipping out.

What an outfit

Browsing through the TV channels, I came across Rachel Ray's chat show. I gave it a quick look because it was going to focus on fashion and getting dressed for different occasions.
The primary example showed her various, conservative outfits (boring ensembles with little in terms of color and layers). Then she showed her sexy date outfit, a pair of jeans and a blouse.
The blouse was hideous! I dub it Terrorist victim blouse (first I named it Hostage victim blouse). It was a white blouse with some frills and four blood-red splotches; the splotches even had outlines of the crosshairs that aimed in on each of the shots. It reminded me of an Envy dress (a dress meant to represent "envy") from Project Runway's second season, another truly awful piece of clothing. The blouse on RR also had a zipper in the middle that allowed the wearer to show more midriff...ugh!
The next-to-worst thing was how Rachel and her clothing "expert" adored this piece-that-should-never-have-made.
Tim, Michael, and Nina...where were you???